My YouTube Channel



So I've decided to fix my YouTube page and post vlogs. I figured it would be easier for me to just take random videos of my daily life and upload them online. It's no different from what I do here in my blog. Just less writing and more candidness (not sure if that's an actual word).

I will post the videos here and of course I'll still blog every now and then. If any of you, my dear readers, are still out there and drop by every now and then, it would be a big help if you can check out my videos.

If you like the shit I post, please subscribe and give the video a thumbs up.

I have a bunch of videos coming up where I'm as crazy as I usually am. I also plan to collaborate with a few people so I hope that goes well.

For now, it's late and I need some sleep because I still have work in the morning.

Love,
Adam :3

Under Construction


UPDATE (April 15)

Almost done. The little annoying things are almost gone! I would to thank my friend Roger for helping me iron out some of the crap I didn't like.

Check out his portfolio at RogerDeCastro.tk.

He's a programmer of sorts. I'm not sure. He builds websites. That's the best way I can describe it.

So uhhhmmm... if you like the design of my blog and you need help, hire him :D

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UPDATE (April 14):

I'm almost done with fixing the blog. It took a lot of effort considering I'm not a master at coding shit. Thank heavens I found the perfect template from GooyabiTemplates and just worked my way from there to make it more 'me'. I'm gonna say I'm 80% done.

What do you guys think? Let me know in the comments section.


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Hello my wonderful readers (or the handful that's left of you) *sad face*!

As you can see,  my blog is currently undergoing a few changes. After almost 2 years I decided to update the design. With that comes the hassle of things not working and the whole site looking like shit.

Effort ito! But I am glad that I have a really good friend helping me out with the creatives and all. 

Soon the whole site will be functional but for now, it's under construction.

xoxo
Adam

The Power of Drag Race


Let me take a break from fixing the blog (which still looks like shit tbh) because I have a story to share.

So I am one of the biggest fans of RuPaul's Drag Race. There's just something about the show I find addicting. Now, I don't know if all Drag Race fans in the country knows this but Alyssa Edwards is in Manila and she will be performing in O-Bar for one night. That's tomorrow.

Of course I have to watch. The queen is here! I took a 2-day leave from work to watch her because I need one day to get ready and haul my ass to O-Bar and another day to recover from the night before because any Alyssa fan would know damn well that it'll be a night of tomfoolery.

With me will be Gregory and his bestfriend. Another person who'll watch with us is one of my friends, let's call him Khan.

Khan is one of my closest friends and he's also a Drag Race fan. A few days ago, Khan twisted his ankle so it's swollen and all. I told him that because of his foot, he might not be able to watch the show with us anymore.

He got up and walked that shit off.

That, ladies and gentlemen who like gentlemen, is the power of drag race.

Oh and here's the best part, Khan is straight. He's straight as they come but is a true Drag Race fan. Like seeing a unicorn, it's un-fucking-believable.

I Have A Car!


The title says it all. I have a car now!

Na-convince ko kasi si mudra na ibigay sa akin ang luma niyang car since may bago siyang CRV. Mind you, this isn't free, not technically. I have to pay her a certain amount but considering the car, it was a steal.

I haven't really drove anything since my accident back in 2010 so medyo nanibago ako. The thing is, I never fully anticipated the expense that comes with owning a car.

Gas prices are ridiculously expensive. Ngayon ko naiintindihan kung bakit deal at national news pag nag rollback ng presyo ang gasolina. Pati parking fee, napakamahal. I pay 150php everyday for parking in Eton Centris. It's a ripoff considering the parking isn't covered or secured.

Maintenance (which I haven't had to deal with so far) is also pricey, I hear. I'll cross that bridge when I get to it. But for now, I want to revel in the fact that I no longer have to ride the MRT (which gets worse as the days go by) or any form of public transportation except for days when I'm not in the mood to drive.

I've had the car for about a month now and I'm comfortable driving around the city now. Pero ang totoong test of courage ng pagmamaneho ay ang pagpunta sa Divisoria.

Hindi ko pa kaya. Not now. Not yet. But soon.

RuPaul's Drag Race Season 7 Initial Impression


RuPaul's Drag Race is back for its 7th season! This time around, it's a mix of younger and older queens and according to RuPaul, season 7 won't follow the same format of past seasons.

First up, Santino Rice is out and we've got 2 new judges. Carson Kressley and Ross Mathews. RPDR fans would recognize Mathews as a guest judge from seasons past. It's nice to see that he's been given a permanent seat in the panel.


Episode 1 (Born Naked) aired on March 2nd and we got to see our queens in action for the first time. Being a HUGE Drag Race fan, I'll give my first impression of the girls. SPOILERS AHEAD.


 Miss Fame

I already knew of Miss Fame before she became a RuGirl. Her make-up skills will give all these girls a run for their money. That being said, in the first episode, I can see a glimmer of personality and I can see her desire to win (like all of them) but I wonder if she hack it on stage performance-wise. We know she's pretty. But can she deliver? We have the rest of the season to find out.

Ginger Minj

Here we have the chain-smoking-cross-dresser-for-Christ. That just rolls off your tongue doesn't it? Ginger is a comedy queen, or so it seems. I feel like she's gonna be one of the girls to beat this season. That's all I can say. I love the Minj! 

Max Malanaphy

Max is classically trained. Apparently, he played the Beast in one of the Beauty and the Beast productions. That being said, her runway looks look high fashion and she brings in a taste of old Hollywood glamour. I wan't to see who she'll play in the Snatch Game.  


Jasmine Masters

The hoe who has something to say. I must say, I love this bitch. Her personality is off the hook and I feel she's the type of girl who you could have drinks and kiki with but cross her and she'll cut a bitch. Runway look was too disco-diva for me. The reveal was nice though. I agree with Carson, she should have taken off the fringe.

Sasha Belle

If there is bigger Drag Race fan than me, I have a feeling it's Sasha Belle. Her lobster dress was fierce and I loved the fan toss. Too bad she missed the mark on the runway challenge. I feel that she's too much inside her head and that could lead to her downfall. She knows how the game is played, but she knows from from being on the outside looking in. Let's see what happens to her in the coming days.

Trixie Mattel 

She doesn't paint for the back row. She paints for the check cashing place across the street. She's serving up some Barbie realness. I think her style is good for the show. There's variety. She is playing a character after all. Side note, she's cute out of drag.

Mrs. Kasha Davis 

I also knew of Mrs. Kasha Davis but that's because she's auditioned every single season. Take that, Alaska Thunderfvck. Her style of drag reminds me of Days of our Lives for some reason. After 7 years, she's finally a RuGirl so I hope she brings it. I can see the fire in her eyes that she wants this.

Katya  
The Russian hooker. I love her. She's funny and sassy. She referred to Kandy as the Bearded Hoe and that for me was enough to root for her.

Jaidynn Diore Fierce 

She's got the sass, she's got the attitude. She's hell bent on winning the competition and she's made everyone aware of that since the trailer. She seems likable though.

Kandy Ho' 

I have mixed feelings about her. She comes off a bit bitchy. Then again it could be the "editing". I just find it a bit off putting what she said to Tempest when they met. A lot of Puerto Rican girls who've been on the show were such sweethearts. Maybe I'm reading too much into this. It's only been one episode after all. I will say this though, the Bearded Hoe delivered a fierce lip sync performance.

Kennedy Davenport 

When I heard that another Davenport was going to be in the show, first that came to my mind was, "amazing dancer". She's the drag sister of the late Sahara Davenport. A quick search on YouTube showed me that whoever lip syncs against Kennedy will be sent home.

Pearl 

Pearl also known as the 'trade' of this season. Before the queens were revealed, Pearl was one of the names I'd always see online. When I saw the trailer, I realized why. The bitch has some sickening looks in store for everyone. Some of the girls find her standoffish which I actually like. She looks like she can't be bothered.

Violet Chachki 

Violet won the first challenge which means she's made her mark on the show. Throughout the show's herstory, the winner of the first challenge either ends up being crowned or at least ends up in the top 5. The only exception to this was Morgan McMichaels from Season 2 who was sent home by the late Sahara Davenport. In the first episode, she seems to be rubbing people the wrong way. I wonder if she's gonna end up being the bitch of the season. I guess we all have to wait and see.

Tempest DuJour

She was the first queen to go home. Too bad. I actually liked Tempest. I thought she'd go far in the competition. It seemed to be a big deal that her outfits were uninspiring considering that she's a costumer. But looking back, this isn't the first time someone who knows how to sew was sent home early. Lashawn Beyond from season 4 was the 2nd queen to go home and that bitch could sew. Anyway, I don't think Tempest should have been the first one to go.

So that's that, my impression of the girls based on the first episode. I'm pretty sure there are those who would have their own opinions on the girls. If you don't agree with mine, that's fine. We are all fans and we all have our own interpretation of the show and the girls.

It's too early for me to give my top three. I'll probably have a better clue by episode 4.

Tune in for my mid-season review of RuPaul's Drag Race Season 7! 

Obsessive - Compulsive: A Real Struggle

A lot of people joke about being obsessive-compulsive (OC) or having OC tendencies. These are funny and all but do they truly understand what it feels like? Do they have any idea how much of a struggle it is?

For example, do they know the feeling of having sleepless nights just because two pillows have a different pillowcase or their pillows are not arranged in a certain order?


It may seem ridiculous or downright crazy, but that's the reality of it all. Not all of us can function normally knowing that our phones have scratches on them or that one sock isn't symmetrical with the other.

For other's, it's something so trivial and they look at us like we're freaks of nature but honestly, we're not. We're just wired differently. We look at the world in a different perspective. We appreciate things that strike balance and anything that disrupts that balance sets us off.

Imagine, having a preference for the color of your gadgets and then one of them is different. It's not hating on the color or the gadget, it's just that it doesn't look even.


One of the biggest problems I have is with books. If I could buy hardbound books only, I would. But I cant. Some are not available here. When I started reading the Harry Potter books, the first 2 were paperback. The rest were hardbound.


Can you imagine how annoyed I get when I look at them? They're not balanced. They're not equal. A book is a book... to someone who isn't OC. But for someone who is, this is sacrilege.

It's not easy dealing with it and we try our best to keep our urges at bay, but it's hard. It's like an itch in our brains that we can't scratch. We all have different forms or quirks of being OC. Some have it easy and they can easily brush it off. For some, it's worse.

Having to go down at night just to make sure that you locked the front door and then going back down again to make sure that you didn't unlock it by mistake when you were checking if it was locked. Yeah, that happens. I've experienced it. I still do.

How about arranging your clothes by color and size with the corresponding hangers to indicate which are regular shirts, dress shirts, polo-shirts, pants, and jackets?

How about not being able to eat when using a different plate or mug because your brain was wired to only appreciate food served on specific plate and drink from a specific mug.

I could keep going on. I could keep rambling, but I'll just sound crazy to people who don't understand what it feels like.

So ease up on the jokes. Being obsessive-compulsive isn't that fun.

Throwback Thursday

A few years ago, I was at my Mom's birthday party in La Union. My Grandfather (well, he wasn't really my grandfather but you get the point), who was still alive and at the time was there. He lived in Canada but was in the country at that time.

During the party, I had a guest with me. To the world, he was my bestfriend. but in reality, he was more than that.

After the party, when all of the guests had left, I was at the house and so was my Grandfather. I don't think I've ever told this story to anyone, not even my Mom. He called me and said he wanted to talk to me.

"The guy who's with you, I know he's not your bestfriend," he said.

I looked at him confused while trying to hide my fear that my cover had just been blown.

"I know he's your boyfriend. I can see it. I can sense it. You don't have to hide the truth."

I was silent. I did not know how to react. I did not know what to say.

"It's fine," he said. "You don't have to say anything."

I smiled and said goodnight.

A few years after that, I found the courage to come out to my mother and she welcomed me with open arms. She said that she knew since I was young.

Looking back, I wish I had the courage that night to tell my grandfather the truth. He asked me many times after that and every time, I would deny it. He passed away a month before I came out. At that time, I wished he were alive to hear the news. I think I should mention that that grandfather of mine was gay, and a proud one at that. He was one of the reasons why my Mom loves gay men.

At that time, I felt a sigh of relief. At least, there was one person who seemed fine with me being gay.


Happy Birthday, Gregory!


Happy Birthday to the best boyfriend in the world!

Happy Birthday to you who makes me smile and makes me laugh out loud without a care in the world.

You who loves me unconditionally.

You who makes my day complete.

You who still sweeps me off my feet.

I may not show it and I may not say it all the time, but I am grateful to have you in my life. I know I can be a handful because loving me means you have to love everything that I am and everything that I am not.

Between the two of us, you are the rational one. You are the perfect balance I need to remind myself that I don't need a lot of things in life to be happy. You take care of me in ways that make me realize that I no longer have to be alone. I don't thank you enough for that.

You have all these little quirks that make me smile whenever I think about them and you keep your composure even when things get rough but the times when you've let your guard down and I saw you break, those moments made me love you a bit more because I saw a side of you that no one else saw.

I love how we have our own little world, our own little bubble where even if it's just the two of us, we don't get bored with one another and we can go on laughing for hours on end. Most people don't even get to experience that kind of love.

I was broken when you met me, I still am and for so many years I've become accustomed to doing things by myself. At times I've pushed you away and built a wall but I am amazed at how patient you are and that even if you don't exactly understand what I am going through or what it feels like to be me, you try your best to do so. Just because I don't say it, it doesn't mean that I don't see the effort you make.

With you I feel safe. With you I feel secure, and little by little, I start to feel whole.

I love you not because of the sweet things you do for me, I love you because you love me despite everything I am that isn't worth loving.

And since it is your birthday, I wrote a song for you.



I hope you like it.

Love,
Adam